Yesterday was my first day of my work’s 6 months weight-loss competition. We all had to put in $100 dollars and the winner takes it all. We would get weighed once a month. So yesterday I got weighed and I just wanted to shoot myself. I weigh 350 pounds!! How could I let this happen to me. Why did I do this to myself? I just want to scream and beat my own ass for gaining all this weight. I weigh this much and I havent even had kids yet. How could my fiance love such a fat person? I feel disgusted with myself. I had weighed 305 pounds for years and it was hard then to lose weight and now I’m bigger! I weighed 287 when I met my fiance in July 2011 and that was my lowest weight in years because I had got a trainer at the time. Since then I gained 63 pounds. I am supposed to get married this year and I feel nauseated about my family and friends seeing me. I just want to cry my eyes out. I really hate myself right now. I have one year to lose weight and I need motivation to kick in to gear. I need to be stronger but how can I? I feel horrible and its all my fault! 
You can do this so don’t lose your head! Cut the sodas and sugary drinks. Eat more fruits and vegetables. Replace white bread with whole wheat. Start walking 20 minutes a day. No fast food!
You might want to start posting every night with what you have eaten. I do this as a method of accountability. It seems to keep me on track knowing everyone is reading what I am eating and I rather have kudos and encouragement instead of scorn for eating wrong. I haven’t had fast food in 11 days now. Increased my fresh fruit/veg content by a huge margin. Staying away from processed/boxed meals (which I find hard as it is so cheap).
Just hang in there! I bet everyone here that “like” your blog postings or is following only wants the best for you and believes in you!
Go Girl GO!
Your awesome! Thank you… I really needed that!
This made me sad
it’s always disappointing when you’ve gained weight but there’s something that I noticed that helps me. I don’t put myself down. I don’t question why the person I’m with is with me, because those insecurities will only hold us down even more. You can definitely lose the weight and look beautiful for your wedding, but try and be positive about it instead of negative. Remember, during the journey you will lose and gain and then lose again. We really are our biggest enemies when it comes to things like this.
In the beginning of January I decided I wanted to finally drop down to 200lbs after almost 10 years. I’ve lost 13 pounds since January 4th but I did go up a few days but those days I don’t put myself down, I just say I’ll do better. And I have
you can totally do this!